Friday, August 15, 2014
Today was my last day working in my current position at Abbott Northwestern Hospital. I have a second interview next Monday for a new position within the Abbott Northwestern Hospital Foundation. I feel confident I will be offered the position because of my existing recent history working within the Allina Health system.
As I prepared to complete my last day at work and attend to the cleanup of my work space I could not help but reflect on beginnings and endings. Temporary contractual assignments such as the one I worked the last two months certainly help me to meet my basic survival needs. But I continue to struggle with believing that they will ever amount to much more than that. I feel they enable me to continue my existence. But I want to do much more than exist. I want to thrive. And I wonder when I will ultimately reach such a high quality of life. When will I do much more than exist?
The chaotic circumstances of my early life history certainly made it challenging to establish a solid foundation for my adulthood. And sometimes I feel I should have already been able to overcome the harm that history caused to me by this point in my life. But here I am still in therapy. The journey I have been on this last year has often been arduous. That is the bad news. The good news is that it is now behind me.
I am looking forward to having time off next week.
Today was my last day working in my current position at Abbott Northwestern Hospital. I have a second interview next Monday for a new position within the Abbott Northwestern Hospital Foundation. I feel confident I will be offered the position because of my existing recent history working within the Allina Health system.
As I prepared to complete my last day at work and attend to the cleanup of my work space I could not help but reflect on beginnings and endings. Temporary contractual assignments such as the one I worked the last two months certainly help me to meet my basic survival needs. But I continue to struggle with believing that they will ever amount to much more than that. I feel they enable me to continue my existence. But I want to do much more than exist. I want to thrive. And I wonder when I will ultimately reach such a high quality of life. When will I do much more than exist?
The chaotic circumstances of my early life history certainly made it challenging to establish a solid foundation for my adulthood. And sometimes I feel I should have already been able to overcome the harm that history caused to me by this point in my life. But here I am still in therapy. The journey I have been on this last year has often been arduous. That is the bad news. The good news is that it is now behind me.
I am looking forward to having time off next week.
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