Tuesday, March 31, 2015
It sometimes seems a bit strange to me that I haven't even seen my therapist for a hundred sessions. I am nearly there though. I had my ninety-sixth session today. Some people go to therapy for many years and still don't make the progress I have managed to make in a 'mere' twenty-one months. It might sound as if I am bragging. And perhaps I am bragging. But I have every reason to feel pleased with my progress. I have earned the changes I have made.
I actually talked about getting completely off my SSRI a bit earlier than I was first planning. My recently established goal was to taper completely off the medication by my birthday in September. I feel it might be achievable and valuable for me to transition off the medication even sooner. And I have a good reason for arguing this course of action.
I recently began to wonder if my dream-life is somehow dampened by the medication I am taking for PTSD treatment. Last year, in September, I attempted to titrate down on my medication. Then my life circumstances worsened. It was really disappointing. But in the weeks immediately following my attempt to titrate down I noticed my dream life became more vivid. This has once again happened in the last ten days or so. So it seems there is likely a correlation between dosage level and my dream-life.
I studied dreams a number of years ago while attending Naropa University. I came to believe in the value of honoring our dreams by keeping a dream journal or sharing them with others in a safe space.
I think transitioning off my SSRI might help me to better recall my dreams. In doing so I might be able to gain insight relevant to my healing process faster than I would otherwise.
......
I feel so much better now. My sadness still is with me. But the burden of my sadness is more bearable. And I am opening myself up to new and exciting possibilities.
We might have our first thunderstorms of the warm season tomorrow. The seasons are definitely changing.
It sometimes seems a bit strange to me that I haven't even seen my therapist for a hundred sessions. I am nearly there though. I had my ninety-sixth session today. Some people go to therapy for many years and still don't make the progress I have managed to make in a 'mere' twenty-one months. It might sound as if I am bragging. And perhaps I am bragging. But I have every reason to feel pleased with my progress. I have earned the changes I have made.
I actually talked about getting completely off my SSRI a bit earlier than I was first planning. My recently established goal was to taper completely off the medication by my birthday in September. I feel it might be achievable and valuable for me to transition off the medication even sooner. And I have a good reason for arguing this course of action.
I recently began to wonder if my dream-life is somehow dampened by the medication I am taking for PTSD treatment. Last year, in September, I attempted to titrate down on my medication. Then my life circumstances worsened. It was really disappointing. But in the weeks immediately following my attempt to titrate down I noticed my dream life became more vivid. This has once again happened in the last ten days or so. So it seems there is likely a correlation between dosage level and my dream-life.
I studied dreams a number of years ago while attending Naropa University. I came to believe in the value of honoring our dreams by keeping a dream journal or sharing them with others in a safe space.
I think transitioning off my SSRI might help me to better recall my dreams. In doing so I might be able to gain insight relevant to my healing process faster than I would otherwise.
......
I feel so much better now. My sadness still is with me. But the burden of my sadness is more bearable. And I am opening myself up to new and exciting possibilities.
We might have our first thunderstorms of the warm season tomorrow. The seasons are definitely changing.
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