Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Something unexpected happened today. I sat quietly, searched within myself and could not find any anger inside me regarding my early life history. I feel plenty of sadness right now. But I do not also have anger within me in relation to my earliest experiences of wounding. That anger is gone. I can celebrate that a fundamental change has finally come to pass regarding my psychic 'weather'. I was surprised by the quietude that prevailed as I made my discovery. It had a quality similar to how spring often seems to come to Minnesota. That quality is subtlety.
The weather outside my skin is a bit frightful today. The world is again bedecked in a (shallow) layer of white. But the thaw is coming. We might even have a spring that will put the last two springs to shame. This wouldn't be a difficult task to achieve considering what passed for spring the last two years.
To have my ancient anger finally wither away is quite a milestone. I'm still feeling a bit stunned as I sit and contemplate this incredible moment. I still have plenty of life concerns in the present moment that I feel frustrated about. But all these concerns feel like a much more manageable load to bear now that the very old psychic dreck is beginning to decisively clear up.
Patience can be a foundation for incredible joy.
Something unexpected happened today. I sat quietly, searched within myself and could not find any anger inside me regarding my early life history. I feel plenty of sadness right now. But I do not also have anger within me in relation to my earliest experiences of wounding. That anger is gone. I can celebrate that a fundamental change has finally come to pass regarding my psychic 'weather'. I was surprised by the quietude that prevailed as I made my discovery. It had a quality similar to how spring often seems to come to Minnesota. That quality is subtlety.
The weather outside my skin is a bit frightful today. The world is again bedecked in a (shallow) layer of white. But the thaw is coming. We might even have a spring that will put the last two springs to shame. This wouldn't be a difficult task to achieve considering what passed for spring the last two years.
To have my ancient anger finally wither away is quite a milestone. I'm still feeling a bit stunned as I sit and contemplate this incredible moment. I still have plenty of life concerns in the present moment that I feel frustrated about. But all these concerns feel like a much more manageable load to bear now that the very old psychic dreck is beginning to decisively clear up.
Patience can be a foundation for incredible joy.
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