Wednesday, February 11, 2015
I have elected to participate in an outpatient program that I hope will provide me some extensive tools to further my healing process. I expect to begin next Monday, February 16th. The program meets for a few hours four days a week for eight weeks. I believe it could make a tremendous difference in the quality of my life and the pace of my journey in the direction of my biggest life goals.
I am excited about this new opportunity. But I also feel quite weary. I feel a bit psychologically 'beaten up' still. I suppose this is not at all unusual considering how long I have been consciously focusing on my own healing process. I have been doing therapy for approximately twenty months now. By engaging in this outpatient program I hope to accelerate the process of my own healing. I want my life back.
My grief and sadness still weigh heavily on me. Lately I am aware of the disappointment I felt during my adolescence. I did not feel very much witnessed by my father as I was becoming a man. I wanted someone to support me in the development of my sexuality.
I nonetheless find myself able to enjoy the small and inexpensive pleasures of daily life that can sometimes be difficult to savor. I still marvel at how well my eyesight brings the world beyond my skin within me. Clear vision is a wonderful gift to enjoy. It is no small gift.
I am hoping to gain insight into how to be a better man in the coming weeks.
I have elected to participate in an outpatient program that I hope will provide me some extensive tools to further my healing process. I expect to begin next Monday, February 16th. The program meets for a few hours four days a week for eight weeks. I believe it could make a tremendous difference in the quality of my life and the pace of my journey in the direction of my biggest life goals.
I am excited about this new opportunity. But I also feel quite weary. I feel a bit psychologically 'beaten up' still. I suppose this is not at all unusual considering how long I have been consciously focusing on my own healing process. I have been doing therapy for approximately twenty months now. By engaging in this outpatient program I hope to accelerate the process of my own healing. I want my life back.
My grief and sadness still weigh heavily on me. Lately I am aware of the disappointment I felt during my adolescence. I did not feel very much witnessed by my father as I was becoming a man. I wanted someone to support me in the development of my sexuality.
I nonetheless find myself able to enjoy the small and inexpensive pleasures of daily life that can sometimes be difficult to savor. I still marvel at how well my eyesight brings the world beyond my skin within me. Clear vision is a wonderful gift to enjoy. It is no small gift.
I am hoping to gain insight into how to be a better man in the coming weeks.
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