Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Life goes on regardless of what we might lose.
It was my father's birthday today. Assuming he is still alive (and I have no reason to believe he is not) he turned seventy-three years old today. I didn't call him to acknowledge the day. I didn't send him a card. What I did manage to do was allow the day to come and go and give very little thought to his special day.
I have made a lot of progress. When his birthday came around last year I was still quite angry with him. I was angry about the abuse and neglect I experienced while I was a kid. I was angry due to his inability to be present to me in a consistently healthy way. Today, a year later, I just feel a lot of sadness. Last year there I had all this sadness and anger inside me. This year I have only the sadness to contend with. I call that progress.
The air outside is very still. It's a calm and pleasant night. I need that calmness inside me.
Life will go on. The sun will rise tomorrow and I expect I will have another chance to make my life something like what I want it to be.
Life goes on regardless of what we might lose.
It was my father's birthday today. Assuming he is still alive (and I have no reason to believe he is not) he turned seventy-three years old today. I didn't call him to acknowledge the day. I didn't send him a card. What I did manage to do was allow the day to come and go and give very little thought to his special day.
I have made a lot of progress. When his birthday came around last year I was still quite angry with him. I was angry about the abuse and neglect I experienced while I was a kid. I was angry due to his inability to be present to me in a consistently healthy way. Today, a year later, I just feel a lot of sadness. Last year there I had all this sadness and anger inside me. This year I have only the sadness to contend with. I call that progress.
The air outside is very still. It's a calm and pleasant night. I need that calmness inside me.
Life will go on. The sun will rise tomorrow and I expect I will have another chance to make my life something like what I want it to be.
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