Wednesday, November 26, 2014
I had another magical moment this morning. It was one of those times when I find it almost effortless to believe that my future is indeed going to be greater than my past. I unexpectedly met the executive director of a local organization whose mission aligns with the type of person I strive to be in the world.
I believe 2015 can be my best year ever. That is my dream.
I met with my therapist last night. It was my last meeting with him in the month of November. It was a productive session though what we focused on during our ninety minutes of time together was not something I preferred to focus on. We spent the session time helping me to prepare for the hearing I am scheduled to attend on Tuesday, December 9th. This hearing is an appeal hearing regarding unemployment benefits I received in 2013 and early 2014. And so, regardless of the fact that I do not want to go through this experience, I will have to relive July, 2013 (to some degree) when I attend this hearing and speak about what was happening in my life at that time.
Reliving trauma can be re-traumatizing. It is my intention that this not occur next month. I am determined to continue making forward progress in my healing journey despite whatever challenging or unexpected circumstances may arise. This is sometimes much easier said than done. But at least I have a supportive network of care providers, friends and others to be available for me during this time in my life.
I am going to end my post today by writing about what I am thankful for. I am thankful that...
Happy Thanksgiving!
I had another magical moment this morning. It was one of those times when I find it almost effortless to believe that my future is indeed going to be greater than my past. I unexpectedly met the executive director of a local organization whose mission aligns with the type of person I strive to be in the world.
I believe 2015 can be my best year ever. That is my dream.
I met with my therapist last night. It was my last meeting with him in the month of November. It was a productive session though what we focused on during our ninety minutes of time together was not something I preferred to focus on. We spent the session time helping me to prepare for the hearing I am scheduled to attend on Tuesday, December 9th. This hearing is an appeal hearing regarding unemployment benefits I received in 2013 and early 2014. And so, regardless of the fact that I do not want to go through this experience, I will have to relive July, 2013 (to some degree) when I attend this hearing and speak about what was happening in my life at that time.
Reliving trauma can be re-traumatizing. It is my intention that this not occur next month. I am determined to continue making forward progress in my healing journey despite whatever challenging or unexpected circumstances may arise. This is sometimes much easier said than done. But at least I have a supportive network of care providers, friends and others to be available for me during this time in my life.
I am going to end my post today by writing about what I am thankful for. I am thankful that...
- This is my first Thanksgiving without the impact of my early life history of trauma unduly burdening me
- I have health insurance which has made my healing process financially feasible. (Without the excellent health insurance I currently possess I might not be where I am today)
- I have loyal friends who have remained my friends through both easy and difficult times
- My physical health is generally good
- I have an intact capacity to learn and walk away from unhealthy situations and people
- I am willing to accept help even if it feels humbling and frustrating
- I am employed in a setting that may ultimately lead to other better opportunities in the future
- I continue to possess the determination and drive to improve my life
Happy Thanksgiving!
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